My Sister's Keeper

My mom and I just finished watching My Sister's Keeper.  It was a very touching movie that makes you feel many different emotions.  In reality, that's exactly what happens.  You go through sadness, anger, denial, exhaustion, and so much more.  When you know you're going to loose someone, you fight with everything you have until you have nothing left to fight with.  At that point, you have to give it to God and some how find peace and let it go.

Last Christmas, I lost a Kiwanian who was like a grandfather to me.  I did get to say good bye to him but you still go through all of the emotions.  We got a phone call on the 20th.  It was his son-in-law calling to tell us that Henry had a stroke during dinner and was in the hospital.  As more information came to light, it was discovered that he did not have a stroke, he choked on food.  But since no one thought of that, no one attempted CPR before the medics got there.  The medics took an awfully long time to get there.  We don't know why.  But since it took so long to revive him, he was brain dead.  That's why we were able to say good bye.  First, I was hopeful that he would get better.  Then, I was sad because I knew I would loose him.  After that, I was angry at the mistake and that it took so long for the medics to arrive.  Then, I just lost it and balled my eyes out.  Finally, I realized he was in a better place and found peace.

The problem is that it's hard to know when you should stop fighting and find peace.  That's where our friends and family come in.  They are our conscious.  After the movie, I turned to my mom and told her that she couldn't ever leave me.  Is that possible?  No.  But I sure wish it was.